Sadie, dear Sadie. You are an incredible woman and parent! My mum too, never pushed me to do something I didn't want to do. But the crisis that I am creating in my family right now with my semi-mental-breakdown is opening thoughts such as: Yes, for one part I think I'll never like the job and because it's boring and I have mental health issues, it seems unbearable day to day. But also: if I don't resolve the issue at hand (being anxiety disorder, adhd, or major depression) I will not be able to keep any job in my life, not even those I would really enjoy. In an ideal world, I would just Medium and Substack while I read and maybe do a Phd...but in this world, I can't be supported by my girlfriend forever, or go and live under a bridge :(